Free

There are so many things that I hid and hide from you for a lifetime.

Things that are unconventional and crazy. Is it because of the generational gap, or just me wanting to be out of the ordinary?

I still wish to dye my hair purple after 3 years.

I still wish to get a tattoo after a couple of months.

I still wish to return to the States, regardless of being friendless.

I feel like you choose to be open-minded about certain things, but then the opposite for others. I don't blame you because you're the typical strict Asian parent, plus your thinking is really old-fashioned.

You made me care and worry so much so the past that I don't want to bother with what you think anymore.

These wants may disappear one day in the future, I know, and then you'd say, "See? I told you so. You don't want them anymore, do you?". But getting these wants do not change who I am inside. But in fact, I am happier. I'm sick of taking the alternatives to what is acceptable. I want to freely express myself, my personality, my likes, my dislikes, my whatever.

I rather be alone than be constrained.

If you're not gonna accept who I am, I'm gonna break free.

I

I know what I'm made of.

I know where I come from.

I know what I've done.

I know what I need to do.

I know what I'm doing.

I understand where you're coming from.

But stop saying that I am your responsibility. I can be responsible for my own actions. I am myself. I know what I want.

I know what you're doing too.