Sometimes, I feel like resigning myself to the world. Yes, I'm stupid. I'm sick in the head. I'm foolish. But I'm still here, ain't I? I know that I have a soft heart of gold, but do I have no self-respect? I do. I'm just unashamed to give everything a chance. I have the same respect for myself as I do for other people. Those who made life choices to be strippers? Good for you! Those who pursue music despite being salary-less? Awesome. Those who believe in what they believe like voodoo dolls and fortune tellers? You do you. Seriously, I raised myself to never be a judgemental bitch. I accept people for the way they wanna be. Everyone has his or her own reasons for being a certain way. It's like that anime, Naruto. Every villain in that anime always has a backstory to explain why he/she is evil (I think there are some exceptions like Hidan and Kakuzu because I think they're just plainly crazy or greedy). I trust that all of us are wary of the right things to do. Here's a random example to support my idea:
Yeah, pursuing a law degree would be badass and lawyers do earn a lot of money and my parents are lawyers and they want me to be a lawyer blah blah blah
But...
I like music. But my parents hate music. But music saved my life. But a musician isn't a stable job.
For all the BUTs in life, please STOP.
Do you wanna grow up having regrets in your life and being unhappy for other people's sake? Even you fail in doing what you love to do, at least you gave it a chance and you hopefully learned from your mistakes. You'll definitely gain valuable experience that is eternally useful in the journey of life. Life is like an ECG reading of a heartbeat. It's perfectly normal to have ups and downs. When your heartbeat is completely flat, that means you ain't living life right and you're dead.
Right now I'm still looking for my purpose in life, where I belong, what and who I am. I don't know. I'm still a teenager, searching for her identity.
