No, it's not a teenage phase.
No, I have not experimented with anyone.
But yes, I am bisexual. I do feel attraction for girls the same way I feel for guys. To be honest, I was crushing on girls first before guys. I remember my first time kissing a friend on a cheek because I got excited. It was a she, and if I don't remember wrong, it was a white girl. It was during my first year in primary school. I don't remember how but we clicked really well. We talked, shared secrets and played together during recess. But it only lasted for less than a year because she had to move back to the US. We're still friends on Facebook though, but not in touch. She's back in Singapore now and it turns out that she graduated from the Singapore American school (pardon my Facebook stalking). I just realized that I only stalk girls (not ALL THE TIME but OCCASIONALLY). Not because of jealousy, but the opposite and I do not want to sound like a pervert. Now, I do get nervous when a girl holds my hand, even casually. My heart skips a beat when my female friends lean their heads on my shoulder. However, when guys make contact with me like a hug, I feel the same.
Don't get me wrong, I do like guys, but only when guys are attracted to me first. I did have high school crushes but believe me, they were short-lived. Ya see, I think all guys are either douchebags or obsessively dumb. Maybe the reason why I think that way is due to my lack of dating experience. But my faith in guys to be "decent" is incredibly low. Girls, on the other hand, are much sweeter and I enjoy embracing girls more. However, I assure you that I am not a lesbian. Or maybe not yet.
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